Some months I look at the grocery budget and I just want to cry. I know what foods are best to feed my family and I know what foods I can afford to feed my family, and oftentimes the two don’t mesh. We don’t have much wiggle room in our budget, we have slowly sifted out all the unnecessaries, yet it’s tight from month to month. We knew this would happen when we decided I would be a stay at home mom, however it doesn’t make the reality any easier.
Several years ago, when I started making changes to our diet, I would be so excited when we would take one step forward. Then I would go home and read some blogger touting that it wasn’t enough. We would start eating more vegetables, but then I would read about the dangers of non organic produce. We switched to organic milk, then I would read about the dangers of drinking conventional milk that is pasteurized and homogenized and from cattle that eat grain. It seemed like no changes I was making was good enough for my family.
I would be lying if I said I didn’t lay awake many nights feeling completely defeated. I wanted to give up. I wanted to go back to being blissfully ignorant. I wanted to be able to feed my family the best. I would literally cook dinner with a sinking feeling in my heart about the ingredients, even though it was definitely a step up from eating out and boxed foods which was our old norm.
John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, I have come that they may have life and have it abundantly.
In trying to bring health and wellness to my family, I was becoming a slave to worry and doubt. Where I used to experience joy in making my family yummy food, I was now experiencing anxiety and insecurity. I had to wake up to the reality that this is not the abundant life that God has for me.
Anything can become an idol in our life, even things that are unequivocally good. God opened my eyes to the fact that healthy living was becoming an idol in my life. It was consuming me. It was stealing my joy.
I can honestly say that it has taken a long time to find that balance. We do the very best we can do with our limited resources, ultimately knowing that we are not in control. God is in control.
Matthew 6:25-27 “For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?
Friends, the goal and heart-beat of this blog is to help you live the abundant life that God clearly desires for us. Just as we desire for our children to live joyfully and abundantly, He desires that for us! So join with me on this journey as we make small changes to better health without worry and with joyful hearts. Let’s extend grace to one another, especially those who are new to this journey and lift each other up with encouraging words.
We will not be perfect, but we will find the balance that works for us and our family. Each of our stories and journeys will be different, and that is a beautiful thing.